Something to Remember Me By

Tonight as I get ready for bed, my mind wanders in time, to a place that I haven't been in a while.  I am not sure why I am here, but I am.  Maybe its because we had "Grits for Grandparents" today at school, but I started thinking about my dear and precious Nanny that past away about 5 years ago.  I am not sure if it is because Patrick is going to be six in a few weeks, or if its the fact that Nathan is growing so fast, but I started thinking about how much I wish they knew her.  Even though I can tell them stories about her life and what an inspiration she was to me, I wish they had the opportunity to feel her hugs, see her smile and even hear her laugh.  I was thinking about how when I was in college, I would see her most everyday and how wonderful it felt to have her right beside me.  We had a lot of fun during those 2 and a half years.  Sometimes I wonder what it would be like if she was still here.  She was always there for me in so many loving ways, and I miss her so much!

 

I was laying on my bed today,

and thought something funny you used to say.

I started to giggle out loud, when I felt a tear,

cause that's when my heart starting wishing you were here.

I thought about all the good times we shared,

loving and laughing, just showing we cared.

I could picture you sitting in your favorite chair,

I remembered how the sun would shine through your hair.

As you sat at the window watching the birds fly by,

It was always fun to sit there by your side.

I started to think what it would be like now,

If I only I could hug you once more some how.

I wanted to tell you of all the great things in my life,

how I'm a great daughter, mother and wife.

I loved you so much, I wonder if you knew,

that I was amazed  and inspired by you.

My thoughts kept wondering about how my life would be

if you hadn't left and were still here with me.

I know I can't go bring you back from the world above,

but until we meet again I'll remember you with love!

 

Thoughts of You

        Tonight my thoughts go to my sister, Karen.  She is a beautiful, full of life person.  She always seems to "have it together".  You know one of those people you gravitate toward, because they are so much fun. But right now she is hurting, lost and confused.  She just recently decided to call off her wedding.  I only know bits and pieces of why and that's all I need to know.  It doesn't really matter.  All I really care about is being there for her and loving her the best I know how.  My heart breaks for her and I can't say that I know how she feels.  I find myself grieving for her at times, when I don't know what else to do.  Its hard to sit back and watch when all you want to do is take the hurt away.  This time I can't and that is not something fun to realize.  So I'm praying for her now.  I pray that God will wrap his arms around her, so she can feel his love.  I pray that she finds peace and happiness, and someone to love her the way she needs to be loved.  I love you, Karen! 

 

Always Sisters and Forever Friends,

That's what we'll be until the very end.

I'll be there for you through the good times and bad,

I'll smile when you're happy, I'll cry when you're sad.

I'll love you and support you no matter what you choose,

The love in my heart, you're sure to never lose.

When life gives us lemons, we'll make lemonade,

Cause together we can weather any storms that come our way!

Friends will come into our lives and some will walk away,

but sisters stay together from day to day to day.

God made us sisters, our hearts made us friends,

That's how we'll stay until forever ends!

- To Susanne and Karen, I don't know what I would do without either of you!  Thanks for being such a big part of my life! You truly are my best friends!  I love you!

Wanted: A Good Night's Sleep!

I don't know if you would say I am venting, looking for advice, or raising a prayer request, but last night marks the 34th night my husband and I have gone without sleep.  Our 21 month old decided the day I went back to work for the school year, he wouldn't sleep.  We thought at first it was just new adjustments, but after one week we still were up most of the night.  When then quickly discovered that he didn't like his crib anymore, and since he has pretty much done everything early( walking, talking, etc.) we figured that made since.  This weekend we had the bright idea to change his crib into a toddler bed.  We even let him pick out his "Diego" bedding.  The first night when it was time for bed everything went as planned.  He went to bed and fell right to sleep.  My husband said,"This is the night, Babe!" We went to bed with high hopes, only to be disappointed again.  Every night since, we have been woke up at least 6 times, because now he can get out of the bed and come and get us.  I don't know which is worse, the constant wailing, or the little tap in the middle of the night.  We are pretty much at our wits end.  Today we decided to convert his crib into a double bed, so that we can at least sleep with him if necessary.( I am sure that is what its going to come to) To sum it all up, I am praying for a good night's rest!  Any suggestions are very welcome!

Family Fun

This weekend I had the privilege of spending time with my parents, both of my sisters and my niece and nephews. Last night my sisters and I cooked a big meal ( country fried steak, mashed potatoes, butter beans and corn on the cob), one of my dad's favorite. Mammy would have been proud of us! We spent today laying out by the pool, swimming, laughing and loving. It was a great weekend. Its times like these I wish my sister Susanne lived closer. Its hard to say goodbye. The children enjoy each other so much, that I wish we could see them every weekend. Mom and Dad I am sure were worn out when we all left, but I know they love every minute of having us around. We had a blast.

Its back to school for me tomorrow. I can't wait until we have another family fun weekend again!