Goodbye Sassy

Today I had to do let my cat Sassy go.  I didn't realize how hard something like that would be, until I had to do it. 

I hadn't even left school yet when I got the call that something was wrong with her.  She had one whole in her side and another on her bottom.  I truly thought someone had tried to hurt her.  All the way to the Emergency clinic, I kept telling myself she would be alright. 

When the doctor came in a told me how bad off she was, I knew she wasn't going to make it.  He told me he could do a couple of surgeries, but he couldn't guarantee me that she would make it through them. 

A dog had gotten a hold of her and almost completely taken her tail off.  It was ripped all the way to her spine, so no matter what she would have nerve damage and would not live a normal life again.

Being by myself, I had to make the decision.  The doctor kept telling me it was okay to decide to let her go, but oh how it made my heart break.  I finally went in to see her and there she was lying on the table so feeble, so frail, and in so much pain.  My heart wouldn't take it.  I started crying and telling the doctor that I didn't want her to live like that.  I didn't want to let her go either.  Once I decided to let them put her to sleep, he told me that was the best decision I could make and that letting her go only meant I loved her that much. 

So Sassy went to heaven today.  Patrick and Nathan took the news okay.  Nathan kept saying "Sassy's with Jesus?"  It broke my heart.  But I said yes Nathan Sassy's with Jesus. 

I know she is better off, but signing her life away was the hardest thing I have ever done.  I will truly miss her!